Desaturasi Merah Jambu - Bacaan umpama naik Roller Coaster

Assalamualaikum....

Lama tak menjengah blog, nak dekat sebulan...Gara-gara FB yang kembali aktif atas dasar-dasar tertentu. So, now dah cuti semester dan bila cuti semester, sudah semestinya I mula blur tahap gaban. Walaupun ada je kerja nak kena buat, I buat-buat buta jaaaaaaaa sebab dah masuk fasa pemikiran 'alah, cuti sem,students takda, relax laaa'. Hakikatnya, ohhh research paper masih lagi tergendala huahuahua...

So, bila blur, mula la episod buka buku cerita~~~ n this book mencuri pandang (trimas kpd kawan seopis sebab bagi pinjam):

Ini hasil carian dari Pak Cik feveret I, Uncle Google...

So, first impression I : alah, buku ni mcm bosan je...mesti kisah cinta cintun tak jadi,datin datuk kaya VS anak suka kat org miskin. Disebabkan bosan (ni time jaga budak-budak tengah final exam hehe), I gigihkan jugak baca 1st page - Sentap! Rare sangattttt...(dan 1st page yang I baca is karangan penerbit buku, bukan penulis) I likeeeee!!! 

Bacaan seterusnya:

Cerita (or more to catatan (for me)) di bahagian awal buku ni sangat kelakar okay. Jenuh I tahan gelak masa jaga exam. Masuk fasa belakang, kisah mula menjadi suram. Dan ya, masa tu baru faham kenapa buku ni tajuknya Desaturasi. Part last buku ni, sangat dekat dengan diri I...It is as if, someone had finally put my feelings and thoughts into words and it is just awesome. Thanks penulis!

Itu je I mampu cerita. Yang pasti buku ni menarik sangat! I taknak la tulis panjang2 kannn, nanti spoil lak orang lain nak baca huahuahua...

p/s : I bukan la pandai sangat nak komen tentang buku. Maaf jika post tidak menepati cita rasa anda. K bai!

Door gift! Finally~~~

Assalamualaikum...

At last, sementara nak tunggu masa untuk clock out jam 5, curi masa barang seketika untuk meng-upload gambar door gift...
Tadaaaaaaaaa.....

Proses menjahit reben untuk dilekatkan kat tepi bakul.

Bakul yang telah dianyam dari ketas newspaper

Siap di cat! Syelek yerrr..warna syelek pun I variasikan supaya tak bosan hehe

Kombinasi bakul & reben..I buat colourful reben tu..

Ya jak la....Hasil penuh, I lupa snap..dah bz kata...hehehhe

Sekiannnn~~~

1 week old~~

Assalamualaikum...

Ngeh ngeh dah selamat bergelar isteri kepada sang suami... Well it's been a whole week hehe...Alhamdulillah~~

Pengalaman?
Well, cross cultural marriage is anything BUT easy!! The real challenge is getting the cooking right~~Guessing by my benchmark - his aunty & mum- nope! not getting near their league anytime soon. Huhuhu Hwaiting Anne!! On myyyy, even the sambal belacan between orang Bidayuh & Malay is different.

The next morning Mr. Suami saved me from the confusion- he cooked- Chicken chop, & it's yummy! Let's see the drama today. In line for menu are orange juice, sayur bayam & ikan bawal 3 rasa. Hopefully turns out well, InsyaAllah~~~
Anyway,sharing 1 picture from the wedding photoshoot (taken by me hehe pki Note 8.0 jerr)

My 1 heels that fits all 3 days of my marriage/wedding events..beli ni pun tahun lepas okay, masa sale awal tahun. Gamble je beli padahal masa tu tak plan pun nak kawin...Beli konon sbb dah berkenan sangat nak pakai, cantek kan pearls tu? Hehhehe 

Countdown!!

Ohh myyy....
Am having butterflies flying in my stomach~~~~
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Esok, InsyaAllah, sah jadi isteri kepada seorang insan yang disayangi...
Semoga dipermudah segala~~Amin~~
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Segala macam feeling ada dlm diri..nebes, cuak, happy, excited etc etc-bukan sebab nak nikah, but sebab esok akan berhadapan dengan family besar si dia..huarggg konfirm muka I yang putih mulus ni berona merah je esok. Dah I ni memang pemerah orangnya..cepat gila blushing (bukan yang pink2 ok, dah crimson red muka I ni blushing)
♡♥♡
Cukup coretan untuk melepaskan nebes dalam diri..
Time for beauty (lah sangat) sleep...
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Assalamualaikum
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Chicken Ka Chiam Ma!!

Wel..It's 4 days before akad nikah & guess what- I'm sick!!! Iboh ditanyak kenak, sbb I pun sik pasti okay~~ Mok madah sebab nebes mok nikah Jemat tok, sik kan la nak sebab bukan ada majlis pun, just simple lunch reception at his house jerrr huahuahua.  SO kesimpulan i adalah, I dapat simptom2 stage fright- am hypersensitive, having a real bad headache (tension maybe? I dunno), body ache (windy body-camya ka mok madah bdn penoh angin ahaha) & disoriented most of the time. Ohh myyyy, iboh I pengsan masa sanding udah. I riso I nangis sik bersebab atas ya kelak, nasib la sikda 'live' broadcast kt dinding...
Wahhh..jaoh dah lari dari topik asal. Ok, berbalik kepada resepi ayam ka chiam ma. Sedikit info k. Ka chiam ma is a chinese dish (etnik apa, I'm not sure). Itis very good to expel wind from the body simply because it uses a lot, i really mean a looooooooottttttttt of ginger & garlic (i love these). In my family, this is a must have dish masa berpantang...
Jumm tengok bahan:

Ok. So bahan-bahan are Ginger, Garlic, Ka Chiam Ma leaves. Nampak ada Planta kan? Resepi ni tak guna any oil at all, but I gedik nak bagi wangi so I guna 1/2 teaspoon of Planta. Also, ada Ribena kat situ - ini pun I gedik. Biasa nya guna sedikit air biasa je, but I want it to be sweet, so I substitute dengan Ribena. Fusion sangattt kannn?? (sesuka hati I je modify resepi).

Ni pula adalah rupa daun Ka Chiam Ma yang dalam packing. Murah jer, RM2 1 packet & the smell is wangiii la sangat!!!

Cara memasak:

1. Panaskan/ Hangatkan daun ka chiam ma dalam kuali. (without oil) Guna api kecik, takut hangus lak daun tu. Agak-agak dah kuar bau wangi, alihkan.
2. Ulang 1 untuk ginger & garlic (ditumbuk) tapi tek perlu alihkan. Dah wangi tu masukkan ayam & gaul rata. Biarkan sebentar.
3. Masukkan daun ka chiam ma & air ribena. Air tu sikit je, bukan macam nak buat kuah...
4. Masak sampai air hampir kering.
5. Makannn!!!

Nah! Ni rupanya dalam kuali...

Yang ni dalam mangkuk. Makan sambil layan buku Inferno by Dan Brown & layan Astro Awani #prayforMH370  

Battle of WANT!

Going with the flow...the battle is nearing the end. I'd like to congratulate myself! -clap clap clap-

For: 

• trying to fight for things that are not mine to begin with
• getting more plasters 
• wanting something that is already acknowledged as mission impossible
• getting puffy, swelling eye(bag) 
• successfully suppressing my wants 
• smiling till the end (InsyaAllah-someone have to give in,right?)

At time (most times), all I wanted is just a show of appreciation that I too, am a part of this (just a stalk of my favourite flower would do just fine. I am a women,after all, & I do love those cheesy things) As time goes by, I learn my place, I learn to keep quite, I learn to talk about distracting things & do things to keep my mind off...

I know I will need to learn more in the future, InsyaAllah, I will do my very best. I want this to last this time, regardless of anything, well except, THAT 1 thing (I'll keep it to myself). 

Gaun Nikah~~~

Post sebelum ni konon kata nak share doorgift kan? Ahaha malas indah mok ngapture gmbr malam2..InsyaAllah, KIV dulu la yerr~~~lgpun tak siap 100% lg bakul tu. Siap nanti I upload..
So...majlis tinggal 3 weeks to go!! Ohh my..I bz dgn menyulam & memanikkan dress nikah. Almaklum la, dress tu di jahit aunty I..so takde la renda,sulam, manik bagai. Terpaksa kerah otak i cari kreativiti & bakat terpendam. Nasib dulu pernah ikut kursus jahit2 ni,Alhamdulillah ada la juga ilmu yang tak seberapa..
Right! Soo jum sneak peek baju I~~~

Aktiviti menjahit renda tepi~~~

1/2 Siap! Nak tengok yang 100% kena la tunggu hari pernikahan I~

So..Siap la jahitan border lace. Lepas jahit sendiri, baru terasa memang berbaloi-baloi baju yang jual kat pasar (kedai ye, bukan pasar basah tempat jual ikan ya!) rega nya sampai beratus2..Mahal kot border lace ya! Yang I beli tok RM 16.90 p/meter (border lace bunga kecik), sebab dress I ni bertingkek-tingkek, so beli 5 meter atas nasihat & saranan aunty a.k.a tailor I. Yang lace bunga besar dalam gambar 2nd tu, semeter RM36 (mok pengsan I kt Fah Company lepas cashier key in rega hahaha)..Belum lagi labuci & pearl untuk hiasan di dada (walaupun I bertudung, gedik jugak nak berhiasan kat dada kan? haha). 

So kat sini nak promote aunty I la...Bagi yang di sekitar Kuching & nak buat wedding dress/ baju nikah lelaki & perempuan, boleh contact I kt blog ni yer. Nanti I pass uolls number aunty I - rmh dia kt Matang, so uolls boleh la jumpa dia secara personal & discuss design yang uolls nak. Harga memang berpatutan, sangat murah berbanding tailor lain yang I jumpa. Tapi aunty I tak buat lace, manik etc etc~~yang tu uolls boleh la jumpa I. Nanti kita bincang tahap komplikasi semua tu untuk kepuasan uolls. 

Ishkk bersawang!

Hehe kembali setelah 7 bulan menyepi...Mak bz jahh!
Summary sepanjang menyepi:

• Gigih anyam bakul utk wedding favours
• Gigih mencari bridal
• Gigih menyiapkan research -I plan nak apply naik pangkat u olls (Aminnn...)
• Gigih design baju nikah~~ awww
• Gigih siapkan proposal utk sambung Masters...
• Gigih bt presentation -juga utk naik pangkat hikhik
• Gigih conduct lecture (Sabtu juga okayss- extra $ utk W-day)
• Gigih kemas apartment
• Etc etc all about W-day

Anyways...ni just menjenguk ngupdate kejap2 jak. Dah deactivate FB so rasa nak mula balik jak blogging setelah kurang aktif. Nak mantain blog education 1, personal 1. Ilmu yg ada harus dikongsi, bena sik? 

Hurmm...entry lepas ni, I nak share tentang doorgift I... W-Reception I sik lamak gik (oh..nak jadi bini org dah!) 16.03.2014 (InsyaAllah...). 

Till then.. Assalamualaikum!~~

E-Day

Assalamualaikaum

Heh, lama sik ngupdate. Bz gilak kerja... Adding another mark on my calendar is 6/7/2013 . Our E-Day. Alhamdulillah. Another step towards the future..
Hohoo cincin tok loose indah kt jari. Masa beli muat jak sik nya gago nak berpusin-pusing -.-"

Nah! Lirik lagu lamak k bacaan & penghayatan jiwa nok sik brp nak sastera.. :p

Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what will happen in the future
We have to go ahead of the moon and the stars
We have to reach beyond the skies
This world will be left behind
Who knows what the future is

Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what the future is
Tread life joyfully
Don;t worry about the rest of the world
Pass the day smilingly
No one knows what the future will be

Yes, life is a beautiful journey
No one knows what the future will be
Death will befalls us one day
The soul will depart one day
Why sorry about such things
Who knows what the future will be

Life is a wonderful journey
No one knows what the future will be

Clash of Bidayuh & Malay~~~

Assalamualaikum...

Kepenatan berkejaran utk abiskan (memulakan sebenarnya) tugasan utk semester baru. Ohh dah dapat jadual waktu mengajar baru . Ternyata masih lg bertahan mengajar Jbtn Kjuruteraan Petrokimia, J. Kejuruteraan Awam & tambahan J. Perdagangan. Ada la pula kena ajar P.Moral...mmg confius lg la sem ni nnt. Keluar kelas BI, masuk lak kelas PM. Heh..dah la BM berkarat nk ngajar dlm BM huhuhuhu...

Anyway..WeDinG UpDatE!!

Yesterday g nangga wedding invitation... G nangga kt Banana Greetings..nang kacak! Quotation price sidak ngan I , above 100pc RM1.60 utk custom made card. Dibah dr ya, rasa nya lam RM2 kali (Lupak juak I). Printing time sik lamak. Sbb I pake custom made card, so I ada ngkah gmbr. Jadi, I perlu anta gamba ngan cdak k email, then sidak akan tlg match colour and design a few design so dapat pilih ne sigek nok berkenan kt ati. (sejujurnya I ok jak, as long as sik pink) Erkk.. Anyway, printing time kejap jak..lam 3 hari leh siap cdak madah. Agak terkejut la sidak nangga tarikh kad ya next year hehehehee..I malas mok polah kerja last minute bah, cepat siap, cepat senang. hehehhehe...So card tunggu confirmation gik..Kira 50% settle lah..

Ohh sik lamak gik saat yang mendebarkan..hikhik rs bahagia dalam nebes...hehe

So bermula la planning secara serius. But seriously, mmg I tensed. Sebab byk planning mok di polah, especially gik bila clash of budaya camtok. My dad want like this, his parents want like that, we want like this...nahhh suma clash of WANTSSS...ehhe sikhal, sapa yg over the top planning, nya la spon lebih hikhikhik... :p

Atur cara majlis pun fening...Mun Bidayuh, ada after party hehehe even mun pengantin ya dah balik, party ttp berjalan. Ya dikira mcm 1 type of entertainment bagi guest yang datang dari jauh. Kira mcm tetamu respek & datang sbb diberi jemputan, so in term of respecting their effort, an after party is presented for them to make it as a memorable night. & in Bidayuh, mmg akan pakai Live Band! Ya kemestian (family kmk org laaa) hehehe...So sik kira la majlis dalam dewan or hotel or kt rumah, Live Band tetap akan menghiburkan tetamu. The sounds give you adrenalin rush so bad so want to twist & turn on the dance floor hehehehe...

So, akhir kata...tungguuu~~~ Next entry, Door Gift! ya pun, mun jak I dh polah hehehehe~~~

Kad or no card?

Assalamualaikum..
Ohh fanas na aritok ehh...dah I posa. Dari pagi td I kepak mengemas rumah, redecorate bilit tdo I & adik I, & last is nyuci akuarium (dh berkarat dah dlm nya bok mok cuci huhuhu-ada d sumpah guppy klk I tok :p )
Anyway....I tok tgh berfikir ttg kad kawen... I mok kad yg simple jak design nya. Terus bermula lah episod bertanya & memeningkan kepala Pak CIk Google....Search punya search..akhirnya nya temu juak yan di idam hati..Contoh adalah seperti di bawah:

                                                  ok..I minat tok. Simple, Nice & sweet. 

This one pun I minat...kacak & creative!

Actually, I just plan mok kad yang simple mimple, one piece (x mok berlipat2,bazir jak), & sik komplikated. 2nd card ya nang menarik bg I, sbb nya ada tab RSVP. Oh..sesiapa yang pergi, sila kembalikan tab RSVP anda kepada wakil kerja ....nahh senang kerja kan? dapat juak allocate table untuk hadirin kelak..

Now, cakap pasal hadirin. I terculture shock la riya. Ada member I polah majlis, alu nya nyeruk la cdak rah opis through outlook jak. Tetapi rami yang sik dapat g coz jauh glak nya molah d Cbo nun. Cun juak masa ya urang gago bergawai (termasuk I :p )... Lepas ya terdengar la desas desus yang certain urang sik pergi sbb anggap tindakan pngantin sik merik actual card sebagai rude or sambil lewa...I pun macam heh?! Dari cya alu I mula la kedekut mok molah kad kacak2. D seruk k outlook, fb or online kelak d mdh sik ikhlas, d berik kad kelak alu d buang2 pya jak kad ya lps majlis. Hen]h! Mensia jaman nektok macham2 perangei jak cdak nya. Malas I mok ambik port gilak. 

Sigek gik la I terculture shock...suma mesti d berik card, termasuk beradik bapak/mak,bestfren,jiran sblh rmh etc2... Mun family I tek, I berik kad alu kecik ati jak cdak. Dalam family circle kmkorg tok, mun terima kad bermaksud yg d jemput ya hanya kenalan or bau2 bacang jak dgn pengantin/keluarga pengantin. Tp kes tok sik dpt d pake dah dgn family urang lain hehhehee...pecoma d mdh sik ekhlas kelak...

Y jak la poret I ritok...Mok bersiap lok.kelak Mr bakal husband mok jemout g sungke sama2! (wink wink)

 ^__^

Mencari Harta Karun Masa Depan~~

Assalamualaikum~~~

Khamis dah ritok..erkk sebenarnya I tok keseorangan jak lam unit I tok lam opis. Bos dh kuar,alu sunyi la i..Sayup2 jak dgr sora org kakar dari unit belah nun...huhu keseraman ada juak.

Yahhh, alu digress~~hikhikhik.. Back to the story mory..

Dh 1 month plus dah gago bercarik cincin k nikah. My bakal mesti la mok k ring juak, apa kes I pake nya sik pake? ahaahha..ne gaya,I demand mok nya k cincin. So that everyone know he is taken & rightfully mine! huh,tamak kan?
First stop : Boulevard~~~ masuk nangga d Diamoney. Kacak2 aie utk ladies & rega pun still in bajet. Tapi disebabkan he is memang seorang yang demand, sikda yang berkenan di hati. So I pasrah. Berjalan la gik.  Lom masuk pun dlm Diamond & Platinum,just nangga showcase d luar jak. Gugok rahang wehh..1 cincin jak beribu. Paling murah wedding band is RM1.2k...utk laki jak ya. Sik jadi. Alu chow kmkduak..ahaha berkat nangga rega menatang ya tek. Tp nang kacak laaa~~
2nd stop : Plaza merdeka~~~ Sik temu juak. Nangga d kede baru ya (I lupak nangga nama kede) sama juak terngagak. Kali sbb both D&P and kede ya ada diamond rah cincin, ya alu rega nya rocket high.
3rd stop: Diamoney kat Paksen lamak. Ya pun terjumpa secara sik sengaja time mok g withdraw ocen dr ATM. Sekali lagi onar ke-demand-an my bakal, sikda juak yang berkenan. Mok give up dah I aieh.
4th stop : Airport. Auk, bena... Kuching Internation Airport ya kawan2. Ada kaunter Diamoney kt luar ya. Setelah hampir 1 jam pilih cincin for him, akhirnya, ada juak yang berkenan di hati! Alhamdulillah! After nya dapat ring & confirm, I gik carik cincin I. Sik lamak ne pun, lamak sbb saiz i sikda. Yahh kecik jari tok susah juak aih! Mala jak sikda saiz....Tp Alhamdulillah, temu juak sigek yang matching with his ring..

Mun mok nangga ring ya, terpaksa tunggu taun dpn la nong...hehehehe~~ Biar la design nya rahsia. :p  (kenjet nya bunyi nak?)

Actually, we decided mun sik temu juk cincin, we will go and have a look kt kede emas. No gold for my bakal, but mok tempah custom made silver wing with batu lip lap atas nya...

P/S: tok mok bercarik dewan gik k majlis....hoh! fening beta!

Cuti2..Part2~~~

Assalamualaikum~~Sekali lagi..entry yg terlampau jauh jurangnya dgn entry pertama. Kepak bz keja oii~~Asa nk leput nyawa ngejar dateline polah keja sik abis2. 

~Lommm...gne nak ka asa mun dh smbung study klk.Mun dah ada baby masa ya, yahh...KESABARAN mesti ada nong- bak kata Datin Baah kita..

Ok..Puas ngerepak...sambung lok entry tentang jalan2 Melaka tok..Rumusan jak la oww~~

Day 2- Bertolak dr Tune Hotel pagi2.. sampe la ke Plaza Rakyat tek nak. Yahh~~Dah baru dh aie (tersakai la kejap nangga dah bersih sik kdk zaman I agik U marek). Kaunter teket ya tingkat 3.Selim I ngan kwn I nikik tanggak..sampe alu terngagak. Bukan apa, sikda nangga alu bas ke Melaka. Alu g la ke kaunter Transnasional- dengan senyuman ala2 muka pelancong bertanyak. Rupanya amik bas d Stesen BTS (Stesen Bandar Tasik Selatan)..Malu u~~~ alu beli la teket g Plaza Rkyt.

Sampe d BTS, skali gik terpinga2..maklumla, I tok d Kch sik pnh k bus express..Stkt bus STC zmn mensia dolok ya pass I.hikhikhik.. Alu teruslah perjalanan ke Melaka, sampe n check in di Venus Boutique Hotel. 

Day 3 & 4 - Ngerayo jalan2 carik mkn & nangga muzium. Sigek jak sik best. Tempat makan di Melaka tok majoriti tutup untuk renovation. Sama la Stadhuys no pemes ya...Agak keciwa. Roda nok pusin2 & river cruise ya eh, kacak nak dlm gamba? Iboh jak...trick kamera jak ya,boh terpedaya tak urang. 

 Surrey la~I sik mampu k kamera canggeh2 bsr2,so gamba sik kacak juak~~~

__Overall- Boleh la~~Ya jak mampu I madah hikhik_ 

Day 5 - Yay blk KL & paling best g KL International Book Fair di PWTC. Memang sesak aiee!!! Tapi berbaloi2 best nya. alu berborong buku la I~~ 

Day ^ -balik ke Kuching, Sarawak! Tanah aek terchenta~~~

Cuti-cuti S'jung M'sia- Day 1

Assalamualaikum..wahh sekian lama juak sik ngupdate ctok. Ok..dtg mood mok mengarang mlm tok..
Last wiken g la melancong tek d benua blh nun.. Mok dkt seminggu juak laa.. Long story short la..
- Day 1 -
Sampe KL jam 830pm..landing tek jam 610pm.hehe. Alkisah nya I ngan membe tek,booking la Tune hotel rah Jln TAR ya. Tp slack sbb kmk duak fail bab hafal jeraya ahaha...turun la d hentian MJ ya.Alu bejalan kaki..cun juak ari sbtu,urang besesak rami sbb psr mlm.Ya juak kepak,belawan besesak gik merempuh mensia rami..nang flat terus batt. Sampe ke sogo alu blur x tauk jln...yahh ajab asa nyawa. Dh gik kaki asa putus urat nye..huhu
Dtg la penyelamat kmk org duak tek..mok tauk apa? Navigation yg d install rah sematpon tok.Nasib dua2 k sematpon,dpt la becarik. Dh sampe hotel alu sakit ati..maka dkt gik mun stop rah hentian Bandaraya or Sultan Ismail..alu ngereco kmk duak ahaha..mun nait monorail stop dkt Medan Tunku ya nang dpn hotel. Hoh!Panas hati..tp ya la pengalaman tek nak. (Maka membe ya urg malaya juak,sik tauk juak hehe)
Sampe jak g mkn.then jumpa kekasih terchenta...nya mengedik juak d kl smlm jak-urg kaya tek nak- Kau ader?! Ahaha I sik ada,dolok I mdh hehehe...
Tunggu..ada masa cita Day 2. Agik la memalukan ahahaha...
Tdo2! <3

Make-Upsssss...zzzz

Ahhh...am I not pretty enough that I need make-up? Or simply just because I look like the attractive-if-I-add-a-touch-if-cosmetics-on-my-plain-face type of lady? Or is it because everyone are using  cosmetics & looks prettier than me,so I need to use some too?
Let me start by explaining me... I was a very simple girl to begin with. At 13 when everyone was busy with beauty products, I didn't even know what is lip balm..so figures (don't imagine). At 15 when everyone are wearing beautiful dress & heels, I was wearing multi-pocket khakis, T-shirts & a cap(my formal attire which I have plenty of proof huhu)
Lets just say those are my dark years in terms of beauty...I dont even care about my appearance.
Moving on to university life...how uncomfortable I am just by applying face powder & lipstick to class. That's my 1st year...gradually I learn & in my 4th year during practicum,I was the only trainee teacher that used minimal make-up to work..hahaha..I can get ready in less than 5 minutes (ironed my attire the night before) this continues until now (sad truth)Thankfully I have pimple and freckle free skin since puberty hehe...
My definition of make-up....
- makes me feel like a clown with colours on my face
- use it if u have like very serious face defects (scars,birth marks etc etc)
My version of make-up...
*very very sheer coat of face powder without using any type of face cream before applying it
*colourless lip balm (no gloss, no lipstick)
*special event - added a coloured balm, white+brown eyeshadow (rarely mascara + eyeliner)
Why I dont apply make-ups...
# I have a really really sensitive skin..can easily get rash,pimples or burns after application of some products..(branded,stores & pharmaceutical products,I have tried it all)
Reasons why I should start using it..
- to try look as pretty as other ladies in his life
- enhance my beauty which I dont have (trying reaallllyyy hard for this cause I'm plain than plain Jane)

Moral of the story #comparing (direct or indirectly-the latter hurts more)a woman to another woman can cause total loss of self confidence for the former party,especially if the former is already lacking in self confidence from day 1#
With that...
Assalamualaikum.. ;)

Adakalanya...

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Ohh lagu tok...very the klmj. Terima kasih utk dirinya yg pernah mencintai & mengajar erti kehidupan kpd ku.
Apapun,Allah tlh berikan yg lebih baik untuk diri ini. Alhamdulillah...untuk En. Bakal suami,terima kasih krn menerima diri ini seadanya & tetap teguh menyayangi w/pun diri ini byk kekurangan,cacat dan cela..
P/S: Ma <3 Pa

A year ain't far~~

Assalamualaikum ^_^

Ohh planning stage is what really takes a lot of time right~~~ this is what I manage to list so far~~ 

(hopefully these are all that I need huhu- cancelled yg dh ada)

Thinking of makin a countdown, but damn, thant will make me more nervous aahahaha.. 

The parts of DIY's is really gettting into me now...I can't find a nice simple tudung that is suitable for weddings, so~~I decided to make it! Hopefully, it work out! Aminnnn~~~

Never had a love like this :)

Preparations...for us. Lately I'm really convinced that this IS what I want to do. To spend the rest of my life with him. To bear his ,our, child. To be together through all ups & downs. Being near gives me all the happiness in the world,with him,I glow with love & affection like never before. Being far make all the jealousy come to life,turning me in to someone I never was before..
If all that are not the signs of, 'I DO'...then, I'm just a girl that is helplessly in love with the most handsome,loving,carefree & funny prince I've met.

Choked...

Literally choked while eating my mushroom meatball & laterally when I saw that picture...
I'm not the type to tell what's wrong..cause I have faith that people have awareness regarding their action. One of the good quality that I learned from someone precious before...
Usually,I'm not this sensitive..but tonight I cant't help but cry. I'm not jealous,I'm not angry...but..I'm feeling insecure,I feel vulnerable,I feel exposed & above all, I'm afraid of losing. I cant go through it anymore,I just can't. I blame myself for this,for having this feeling...I pity myself.
Pengalaman mendewasakan..maybe. But pengalaman juga membuatkan diri ini fobia.
I'm just afraid... I know I cant go through the same thing again. I just dont have the strength,not anymore.

To love & to lost... Life goes on~~ Footsteps on the sand will be erased when the tide comes, but it will forever change the sand grains and remain embeded.. :)