Just the way you are :)

Hurmm...This song touches my heart..Makes me wish I'm that girl he sang it to ;)
May b 1 day..InsyaAllah..Kita doakan jak la. ;)

As I woke up today (I was late for work!! :p )...

Kebelakangan ni fikiran I kusut..dgn bermacam2 persoalan...

Last nite, as I text with my 'friend', he's damn serious bout me being his wife. It's not that he's not good, he's everything I wanted as a husband. I knew him for 4 and a half years now. And he stand to his word of waiting for me no matter what happens. He did, after everything I've done...Yet he still wants me..
His words that I cant forget is 'I never touch ttg kelemahan U. So jgn U mulakan. Bagi I Ur perfect. Sesempurna yg I inginkan sebagai isteri I'...tersentuh skjp dgn kata-kata tu, bila diri ini merasakan tidak sempurna, ada insan yg masih mengungkapkan kata itu...Alhamdulillah, hrp2 itu bkn skdr manis d bibir shj. I don't want to put too much hope in it. Sedangkan pantai boleh berubah :)

Terlalu besar rasanya cita-cita dan impian yang ingin dikejar. Smlm, kata-kata daddy telah menyedarkan diri ini ttg sesuatu...bicaranya lembut, tp cukup terkesan di dada. Ucapnya 'jgnlah terlalu memikirkan diri org lain hingga mengabaikan diri sendiri.Tanggungjawab sbgai kakak, ckuplah sekadar yang termampu.Tidak perlulah mengorbankan segalanya utk adik2. Think about ur own. Ur a big girl now,U need to start to build ur own family'. Akan patahkah hatinya bila tahu anaknya ini, semakin putus harapan terhadap cinta? Entahlah...Apa ada pada cinta? Ia sesuatu yg abstrak, tiada definisi, juga sifatnya tidak dpt diungkapkan dgn kata-kata. Bagiku, cinta sentiasa berubah. Cuma akal, rasional dan komitmen yg dpt mengukuhkan sesebuah 'cinta'...

Minggu dpn, bermulanya tugasku yg sebenar. Mgkn tiada masa terluang utk mengusutkan kepala dgn segala persoalan2 spt skrg. Tp to me it's far more better. I want to focus more on my work...Enough of hearts and feelings stuff. InsyaAllah, I'll do the best for my life. I know I can sit on clouds, fly to the moon, chase stars and colour the rainbow... Lets juz keep the spirit high.. ;)

~Hugs Quotes~

A DOCTOR'S PRESCRIPTION FOR HUGGING:
by Mark Katz, M.D., Member of L.A. Shanti's Advisory Board
"How important are hugging and physical and emotional contact for people affected by life - threatening illnesses? In my work, I have found that people who receive nurturing maintain a better outlook on their situation -- and historically, positive attitude is an important factor in long-term survival. Hugging and physical contact make a difference in a person's frame of mind, and may help their medical condition. Best of all, hugging has no side effects and does not require a trip to the doctor. "I recommend at least one hug a day"

~Hugs~

There's something in a simple hug 
That always warms the heart; 
It welcomes us back home 
And makes it easier to part. 

A hug's a way to share the joy 
And sad times we go through, 
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you 'cause you're you. 

Hugs are meant for anyone 
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbour, 
Or a cuddly teddy bear. 

A hug is an amazing thing - 
It's just the perfect way 
To show the love we're feeling
But can't find the words to say. 

It's funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good; 
In every place and language,
It's always understood. 

And hugs don't need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts -
Just open up your arms 
And open up your hearts. 

       Jill Wolf 

Life if has a funny sense of humour...sometimes it's harsh, yet meaningful, sometimes it's soft but unmoveable...Lately, all sorts of questions pops out in my head, trust me.There's lots more questions than answers right now. There's lots more uncertainty than determined action...
I consider myself in a transition stage now ( I think so...) A lot to think, a lot to consider, choices to take, actions to be done, but yet, so little time...It seems like I want to reach for evrything but there's juz not enough energy...Still, I still have th conscious in me, not to reach for things too high. If you can't reach for the stars, then admire it from afar. Alhamdulillah, I'm content with what I have now, with what i have achieved.
Relationships? I failed in that successfully (^.^)  I cease to think bout it, but it doesnt mean I lose hope in it.Juz not this time..Just not yet~~InsyaAllah, one day. It's a hard choice to make in my case--between family and the one you love. Its like the situation I've been through not so long ago...Only this one, I am late in realising it. Love can be find in any way,..but someone had waken me up, making me realise all that I have had is to be thrown juz for the sake of love...A broken relationship like mine (once had), seems valueless and it makes the feelings more vague. He took me for granted as he knew I cant live without him (I onced think like that) but now I realised I dont need him for he's there juz to wound me further...it's possible to be blown by the wind and are lost with the sands of time. Who knows...I leave it all to Him above ^.^
I'm happy with my life, I'm content with the path I'm in, I'm satisfied with the choices and decisions that I've made...but bear in mind...I'm not gonna stop!!As I know, I have a lot to be achieved in this life of mine & that I will do with a lot of enthusiasm...I wanna colour the world with my pallets!! ^.^

I smile...dont ask why. Heehee...
Hidup ini pelik kan? Sometimes we're happy when we're sad..Sometimes we're sad when we're happy. It a circle but a distorted circle...Wonders of Allah..But still Alhamdulillah, coz we're given another chance to live and enjoy His creation...
Along this life, there's a lot of people that I stumbled upon..some stays and some goes. Some makes and bring changes, some became the changes...
Actually, I tak tau apa yg I merepek ni..nghee...
Kblkgn ni, I always think about my life...Entah, mcm dh jd semakin dewasa la pulak (cheewah!) I did a lot of thinking. Honestly, I think something in me have changed. I'm not sure what, where & when , but I'm positive it's there. Alhamdulillah, I'm happy with the change. I dah mula thinking bout my future, where I want to be, what are my aims & how I want it to be...Bak kata orang, segala yg indah itu bermula dgn impian & perancangan. Tidaklah salah utk bermimpi, asal tahu d bezakan mimpi dan realiti. Impian itu pendorong, tp perlulah d bataskan agar tidak memakan diri...InsyaAllah, peringatan utk diri sendiri  ;)
Balik ke kpg smlm, mencambahkan keinginan utk mempunyai cahaya mata sendiri. Kelincahan anak buah, kepetahan nya bercakap, dan kenakalan nya mengusik membuatkan hati ini riang. How I long to have a baby..tp blum tiba masanya kot..nghee...InsyaAllah ada rezeki, ada jodoh...Bersabarlah wahai hati ;-)
My active life also have slowed down. I miss my time I spent jungle trekking, photography...One day, InsyaAllah...

cinta seorang teman..

Oppss my topic today is very cliche..haahhaaa as many belief that man and women cannot stays just as friends...how's that?
For me, ini bknlah isu yg baru...I've been asked & jealous-ed upon by exs', his gfs' and our frens. I mean its completely normal for me to be friends & stays just as friends to a guy. Its's no a biggie or it's not as if the world's gonna end. I'm very content & comfortable becoming friend to guys compared to girls...Y u asked? I also dont know!! I dont hv many girl friends, nor do I hv a real permenant girl's comsultant as many girls do. But I do a long list of good guys friends..& psssstt~~ I have a permanent boy friend too as in juz friends k)...  Guess i'm different & that I indulge in ;-p

Feelings...

How do you know it's true? How do you know it's real? I have s problem with these two..